confused frustration

Today my papa and I went on an exciting trip to Canadian Tire and Tim Horton’s for a coffee and donut today. We started talking about the lack of Christmas lights up in our new area in Ladner which led to a discusion on how the true meaning of Christmas is going to shit. I started to get really upset and angry about it on the way home. Why would someone want to ruin something that is so important for so many people? It would be like having everyone I know, come over to celebrate my birthday. But, they all would only come for the party and just insult me, spit on me and ignore me. And instead of singing happy birthday to me, they would intoxicate their selves with consumerism, media, and sure, why not, drugs and alcohol. I never had a problem with non-Christian celebrating Christmas. Heck I was one of them. But when they start changing the purpose and telling us we are not ALLOWED to celebrate our holiday. That. Ohh. That makes me so very livid- like gnashing your teeth livid. I have no idea where the concept came from that Canada or America is an “explicitly” atheist country. We kicked god out. We tell God to get out of our schools, out of out lives, out of our work ethic and out of our governments. No wonder why the world and Christmas is Diminishing! For all those people who ask us, “If god is so great and powerful, why does He let bad things happen?” Well, how can he give us protection and blessings if we don’t let him into our world? God isn’t like us. He is a gentleman. If we ask God to get out of our lives, he will get out. God is deeply saddened by things, just as we are. We believe the newspaper and magazines but we question the bible. We simply trash god and Christianity and then sit back in and wonder why teenagers are bringing guns to school and shooting their classmates in the head. I come home to ladner from being away for 3 months and my old school is in a friggin’ lockdown because some kids threaded to kill their classmates. But no, Christmas tree are offensive! We Reap what we sow folks! (Galatians 6:7-9). We see this in out daily lives, the lives of our friends and family, the downtown east side, in our native reserves and in our environment. Anyways…I’m getting really upset here; I need to get some chocolate. I never feel confident to voice my opinions out loud just because I feel sometimes i'm to uneducated and I just allow my heart and feelings to take over way to much. Or maybe not. Je ne sais pas. Avoir.